Fat Princess Will NOT Be Fat Fairy!

dreams2Week: #2

Pounds Lost: 0

Pounds To Go: 130

It’s no shocking news that I participated in this past weekend’s runDisney Princess Half Marathon Races. I completed the 5K, the 10K, and the half marathon over my three day weekend adventure. Were my finish times a source of pride? Not really, but that wasn’t really my goal for the weekend either. My goal was to finish injury free. The truth is, I am acutely aware of my size and what it means in relation to my running. For every 1 pound of weight, a total of 4 pounds of pressure is placed on those ever so necessary knees. So currently, having an extra 130 pounds on my body equates to… wait for it… 520 EXTRA POUNDS OF PRESSURE!!! That’s a reality weight-loss show sized person of pressure! For this past weekend, I was definitely a Fat Princess, still a princess for sure, but a fat one! This weekend was the largest I have ever been for a half marathon, so, I took it slow, and completed each race pain free. Am I sore? Um yeah! Of course I am, but I still played in the Disney parks after each race, and taught Baby Boot Camp this morning, so obviously I am injury free.

Beyond the pressure of my knees, I found myself not wanting to take as many pictures and didn’t feel as royal as I maybe could have. I wouldn’t say I was discouraged, ok maybe I would, but I just don’t like having pictures of myself in this state. However, there were some truly amazing characters along the course, so I had to suck it up like a buttercup and take my Fat Princess pictures. I was accepting of the fact that there was no one else to blame for me being a fat princess except for myself. I ate my royal cake and now it was time to pay for it. Even with the disappointment surrounding my stature, I still had an amazing experience, and found myself looking towards the next Glittery Ovary Explosion of a race weekend that is Tinkerbell Race Weekend in May. During that weekend I will also be doing the 5K, 10K, and half marathon, but this time I will not be a Fat Fairy!

I am determined to make Tinkerbell Race Weekend one of celebration. One of being able to take pictures without being so self-conscious. I will wear the race attire I love and not avoid wearing my favorite tanks because I have too much back fat. I will not be the Fat Fairy who finished races despite the limitations of her size. I will be the Fit Fairy who more so looks the part of the runDisney fanatic, who I most certainly am. Am I expecting to be at my goal weight by May? Yeah, NO! I am not a lunatic! I know that losing that much in that little time is not even remotely possible, nor will I be resorting to any unhealthy behaviors in order to reach a weight loss goal in an unreasonable amount of time. What I will be doing is sticking to my plan. Putting my goals ahead of my excuses, and making sure that every choice I make in regards to food is one that will take me one bit closer to the Fat-Free Mommy I am determined to be, and by Princess  weekend next year, I will be a Fat-Free Princess too!

 

XOXO, 

Fat-Free Mommy

The Biggest Loser’s Forgiveness

Week: #1

Pounds Lost: 0

Pounds To Go: 107

A couple weeks ago, I got to be a running princess once again, and I loved every minute and every mile of Disney’s Princess Half Marathon weekend. 22.4 total miles (5k, 10k, and a half marathon) later and I have to say that my best memory from the weekend wasn’t from any of the races, although they were absolutely wonderful, but my best memory is from a five minute breakdown of a conversation with a weight loss celebrity.   Danni Allen of The Biggest Loser fame was scheduled to be a speaker at the Fit for a Princess Expo, and I was beyond excited to see her. In season 14, she won the Biggest Loser, I watched her lose her weight, I watched her win, and I identified with her all those years ago, because she was inspired to lose weight by a traumatic health experience with her Dad. Us Fatty McDaddy’s Girls need to stick together, right? Well fast forward to a few weeks ago, and I was pumped full of weight loss energy, and ready to totally geek out and get my picture taken with a weight loss idol.

Seeing her talk was amazing, yes she was a celebrity, but she was real,  and she seemed like a friend up on that stage. She spoke of taking weight loss one day at a time, and making small changes in order to make an eventual big change, giving up the scale obsession and focusing on the fit of clothes. She was lovely, and I sat there just soaking in her weight loss positivity. Her speaking time came to end and it was time for what we had all been waiting for, time to actually meet her, ask questions, and of course take a social media postable photo. When it came to my turn, even with a line up of women behind me, I took the opportunity to do the unthinkable. After our photo, I said I had a question for her and then it happend… I completely broke down.  Even as it was happening, I was telling myself not to cry, don’t let it all out, but I was powerless. I told her how she inspired me because I too was a Daddy’s girl. I told her how after having my daughter I lost 220 pounds, felt amazing, and then put 120 of it back on to have my son. I told her through embarrassing tears how my Dad passed in November and how a since then my weight loss has stalled and gone in the way wrong direction, and how I just can’t seem to get a grip on it and turn the weight loss train around.  At that point I was ugly crying, apologizing for crying, and she did just what a friend would do… She gave me the biggest, most sincere hug. Then she gave me the advice that only she could give. You need to forgive yourself, she said, and she was absolutely right. 

I am sad, I miss my Dad, and for the most part, I can be strong, I can put on a brave face and go on with life’s progress. But then, there are other times, ironically today is very much one of those other  times, when the tears flow, the flashes of his death take over my vision, and I feel lost and alone. Typically, that will result in a binge,  and it doesn’t really matter what food I turn to, my ability to have self control is completely gone. At some point I will snap out of it, gain control, but by that point, I will have also gained a pound or five, or ten depending, which leaves me as a shell of strength, hating myself for not having it all together. It’s a cycle that I need to break, and that every week I work on breaking, but what I really need to do first is eactly what Danni said, I need to forgive myself. I need to take it one day at time, and realize that this time around, weight loss may not be as easy, but I can’t and I won’t give up.

I am so thankful for my embarrassing moment with Danni. It was a small piece of an exciting weekend that truly meant the world to me. I may not ever see her again, but I am a forever fan, and she has helped me more than she may ever know. I am still very much a work in weight loss progress, but I can do this. I will reach my goals. It will take a while, but I will be the Fat-Free Mommy who I know I can be!

XOXO,

Fat-Free Mommy



Recovery Time

Week #1
Pounds Lost: 4.8
Pounds To Go: 102.2

Typically, I am a devout practitioner of the church of Recovery Schmecovery. I take a few minutes to stretch, and rub on some essential oils, sometimes I even foam roll. I didn’t have any pain after the races. Sure, some muscles were tight, but nothing close to what others felt. I was walking fine, and back into my routine without a hiccup. However, this time, I did figure my body was deserving a bit of relaxation for a job well done. Of course during the week, it was busy life as usual with Baby Boot Camp, gymnastics, and ballet, but once Saturday arrived, it was time for some much welcomed pampering.

I know many runners who indulge in pre and post race massage, but let’s be honest, the Fat-Free Mommy just doesn’t have the time for that. Plus, I have a foam roller, which does the trick, that is when I use it, and I was in the mood to try something new. I had read about how acupuncture could help runners recover, and as fate would have it, one of the fabulous Baby Boot Camp mamas is also an acupuncturist. So, I made an appointment with mama Sara at the Thank You Mama Wellness Center, and onto her table I went.

First, she did some strategically placed cupping, followed by a little massage, and then the acupuncture needles. Nothing hurt! I know the thought of needles can make even the toughest cookie crumble, but really there wasn’t any pain at all, in fact I barely felt a thing! Once the needles were in, I received the best relaxation gift… 20 minutes of laying on a table, looking like what I’m sure came close to a porcupine, in the comfort of a warm quiet room, all by myself. The experience was delightful, and much better than any massage I have ever had. I left with an overwhelming sense of release. It was wonderful, and I’ll surely be back for more! In fact my next session is already scheduled as an immensely thoughtful Valentine’s Day gift from my wonderful husband! I was sure to thank him for his unknown thoughtfulness the minute I got home!

They say, if it’s important to you, you’ll make time, if not you’ll make excuses. I have always been able to make time for exercise, it has become an integral part of the Fat-Free Mommy lifestyle. However, making time for pampering, well let’s just say it’s been easier to make an excuse for the past few years. Well, it’s now time to let go of those excuses, and start making time!

XOXO,
Fat-Free Mommy

Doing the Impossible

One of my favorite wise men once said, “It’s kind of fun to do the impossible”. Well I don’t know if Uncle Walt ever dreamt of the runDisney fitness empire, but I’m certainly glad it exists. This past week, I had a lot of fun doing what I have thought of, countless times, as the “impossible”. Some of you may have heard of a little thing called the Dopey Challenge. If you haven’t, it’s a 4 day running challenge that includes a 5K, a 10K, a Half Marathon, and a Marathon. Yes, that’s 48.6 miles of magical run/walk intervals, 6 beautiful sparkly medals, and a title… Dopey! So, yes, I , the Fat-Free Mommy, am officially Dopey! Wait… What?!?

Not too long ago, I thought a half marathon was impossible, then it was a marathon that I thought was impossible, and now I know that not only are they both possible, but I can do them back to back, with some other runs thrown in for fun! The cherry on this unbelievable fitness cake is that I am still so far away from my fitness goals as far as weight loss and muscle gain are concerned, that I am certain that this still isn’t the best I can do. I took it easy in each race, knowing that I would double the distance with each passing day, and also knowing that mileage-wise, I would not be halfway done until mile 2 of the marathon! Each day after the race, I played in the Disney parks, because even though I am a runner, I am a mommy first, and my little royals needed some Mickey time of their own. I actually think keeping my legs going helped my recovery from day to day. Even today, the day after Dopey completion, I spent the day playing with my little royals in the most magical place on Earth, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I am a strong mommy and both parts of that title are equally important.

On the flip side, I know that if I were closer to my fitness goals, the challenge would have been easier, the runs would have been faster, and let’s be real, I would have looked a whole lot better in all of those race photos! So, as crazy as this may sound, I am using this past week as a new starting point, a rock bottom if you will. I arrive home tomorrow from this surreal runcation dreamland and I have a plan to getting back to the best version of me. Maybe it’s not really getting back though, because of what I have accomplished even with my body in the state that it’s in. Rather, it’s moving forward to a new best version of me. Maybe it will even be a version of me that I right now, think of as … impossible.

Well, look out world, the Fat-Free Mommy is energized, full of Disney running magic, and ready to reach beyond any impossible goal! Week #1, here I come!

XOXO,
Fat-Free Mommy

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Sharing the Love… A Runcation Story

Well it’s been a few months, so it’s safe to say my weight-loss success story has been at a bit of a standstill. My training on the other hand has been consistent and I have not missed a workout. However, the saying you can’t out-run a bad diet or bodies are shaped in the kitchen, couldn’t ring more true. Let’s just say, I’ve been doing my research just to be sure. So, now that the research has yielded a conformation of such sayings, it’s definitely time to get back on track! Needless to say, I am not currently a resident of Onerderland, but I am in a subdivision near by with a very short term lease! Am I disappoint in myself, of course! I am acutely aware of how close I could be to my goal weight if I could only get my eating under control. However, even with that disappointment, I am excited about my physical training and dedication to that training. So, for now, let’s focus on the positive.

Three years ago when I started this little journaling adventure, or even for my entire Fatty McFatGirl life prior, I never would have thought that I would be the person who used a race as a purpose for a vacation! Well, the Fat-Free Mommy family just got back from our first official Runcation! We traveled all the way to that other sunny state so that I could run in the Dumbo Double Dare at Disneyland (10k Saturday + 1/2 Marathon Sunday). I wasn’t nervous about the races, I had done the distances back to back many times before, what made me the most nervous was that cross country flight. Armed with goodies from Ellimoon, I was ready, or rather my little royals were ready with beautiful distractions. Overall, flights went quite well, my prince was awake and excited, which didn’t seem to amuse the row ahead of us, but if you are going from one Disney vacation spot to another, you should probably expect to have tiny humans aboard.

Now, most would expect that I would be excited for the races, or even playing in the Disneyland parks, which of course I was, but the one event that I was most excited for was the two hours I was going to work the Raw Threads booth at the fitness expo! It is no secret that I am mildly obsessed with the beautiful creations of running fashion designs from Raw Threads! They are beyond soft, the colors are amazing, and the designs that give subtle nods to my favorite disney characters are the BEST! Clearly, I am a superfan, so when I was offered the opportunity to work their expo booth, by a very dear friend, I was sure to make it happen! It was only two hours, but sharing the love of Raw Threads with complete strangers was amazing! It really wasn’t selling workout gear, it was creating bonds with new friends over running fabulousness. Hands down, the best fitness expo experience of my life!

Now that we are home, I feel the need to refresh my focus. Hence the break from my apparent blogging silence. Over the course of the next 5 months I have a few 5ks, a couple 10ks, a 10 mile race, at least 5 half marathons, and 2 marathons ! All of the miles and Baby Boot Camp workouts that I will log are only a small piece of this training puzzle… The rest comes from the kitchen. So, here we go! Running season has started, and there is no such thing as giving up!

XOXO,
Fat-Free Mommy

I’m Baaaack… But no really, this time it’s on!

Week: #32
Pounds Lost: 63
Pounds To Go: 82

Well hello there online fitness diary, I have missed you so! Well maybe I haven’t exactly missed you since I completely pushed you to the side for the past almost two months, but I do feel bad…does that count? Feeling bad is purely selfish of course since I have figured out that there is a direct correlation between my post frequency and weight loss. I mean in the past two months I have lost what, a whopping 5 pounds?!? For me, that’s just sad, especially because I know that I have been losing, gaining, and re-losing the same damn 10 pounds since who knows when. Of course, we have been super busy here in the Fat-Free Mommy house, but that is no excuse! So here’s a promise I have made to myself… I will post on a more consistent basis, or I will sentence myself to doing an hour straight of burpees! Who doesn’t hate burpees, right? Personally, I would rather go all Tonya Harding on my own knee caps than do an hour of burpees. So, is that a Deal? Deal! Onederland is so close I can see it on the scale if I don’t step on it all the way… So it’s on!

So what’s been happening? Well I am really good during the week since we are always on the go and in a predictable routine, but then comes the weekend. I don’t know what it is in my brain that just shuts down, but once Friday night comes, it’s as if a black hole takes the place of my stomach and the binge eating begins, and continues throughout the weekend. Then on Monday, I hate myself and start back on the right track, only to ruin it again on the weekend. Dude?!? I really need to get a grip! I can go on family outings without indulging on everything in sight, I know I can, I have done it many times before, but for whatever reason, my healthy weight-loss driven brain has been shutting down, even if I bring along prepared meals. Well folks, I can proudly say that this weekend was the first in many where the binge eating inner Fatty McFatGirl did not take over, and I am so excited! After all, I did give her a pretty good send off last weekend!

Last Friday was the 24 hour day at the Mouse’s House, and I went as a Fat-Free Mommy with other mommies and friends. No kids, no husbands, just the girls and we had so much fun! At the beginning I was good, I had packed all my food for the day, and until about 3pm I was actually on the healthy track…then an apple, wearing Maleficent clothing (apple dipped in caramel then dipped in chocolate with rice crispy treat horns also dipped in chocolate), beckoned to me. I looked, thought about walking past, but bought and ate it along with a mouse shaped cake pop. They were delightful and the great end to my healthy day. Many more indulgences crossed my lips before 6am when I drove home in Fat Girl shame. Ironically, that wasn’t the last straw. My turning point came a few days later when I read a particularly irksome comment on social media.

There is a new ride at the Mouse’s House, and it is one of the best, so much fun and I am so happy to have ridden it three times before the official opening. The comment I read was regarding the size of the seat on said ride. Personally, I thought they were normal and fine, and I still have over 80 pounds to lose before I am considered “healthy”! However, there were complaints that the seats were too small, and that seats of that size could pass in Europe or Asia, but in America where people are larger, the seats should be more accommodating. Reading this made me as red as an angered fairy. So you are so large that the seat is uncomfortable, and it is the fault of the seat? Really? Having trouble fitting in a generic theme park ride seat doesn’t inspire you in the slightest to to decrease the size of your hiney? Really?!?! Because right now, I am too grandiose to fit into my skinny jeans, but I am not placing blame on the fashionable denim, oh no, I am 100% to blame! So I am making myself smaller, and every day I look at those beautiful pants and I am inspired to keep going! I would think that if you could only snugly fit into something that was made to fit most people, that you would take a look at yourself and maybe be inspired to get to a healthier and smaller size. Now, of course there are amazonically tall people who can, at best, awkwardly squeeze into some attraction seating, but that’s not where these complaints were coming from, and for those people I do feel bad. However, to quote one of my favorite films, “You do not alter a Vera to fit you, you alter yourself to fit Vera.” Thank you Kate Hudson in Bride Wars. The same applies here, you don’t alter a ride to fit the obesity epidemic in America, you alter the obesity epidemic to fit a ride! Yes, weight loss can be a challenge, and at some points even seem impossible, but it is possible… For anyone! You just have to decide for yourself that the uncomfortability of a life change is worth far more than the comfortability of fatness. **stepping off of weight loss soapbox**

One thing I know for certain, if someone doesn’t want to lose weight and be healthy for themselves, then the weight loss is bound to fail. You may have to hit some type of rock bottom, or be irked enough by the opposition, to sincerely want it without hesitation, but either way you must do it for you. Well, I want this for me! My morning weigh in is my true mommy only time, it’s just me and Madame Scale, facing off, and from here on out, I will be on the winning side of the draw,

XOXO,
Fat-Free Mommy

Tutu Pride

Week: #24
Pounds Lost: 58.4
Pounds to Go: 87.0

What a week! Ok, what a month? Couple of months? It’s clearly been far too long since my last post. Life in the Fat-Free Mommy house has been full of half marathons, 5ks, 10ks, tutus, and of course sparkle. Yes, for my races I more often than not will wear a tutu or something that sparkles, or even both, and not because I somehow think I look like a graceful prima ballerina while I run, because let’s face it, that would be impossible, but because it’s fun! Do I think dressing like a princess/ballerina makes me run faster? Um, no! But it definitely doesn’t slow me down, and if anything, having fun with my race outfit of choice keeps me going strong, because it keeps it fun! I eagerly await the new shirt designs from Raw Threads, my all-time favorite activewear company, so that I can plan my next race outfit. Planning the outfit is part of the fun! Racing is fun! Running is fun! Without the fun, it wouldn’t be worth repeating.

Well this past week it seems as though a certain women’s fitness and beauty magazine tried to bash having fun with your run. If you have not heard or read about the recently published tutu bashing by Self magazine, then stop right now and read this article featured in the
Huffington Post.

According to the media kit by Condenast Self has the following as a part of it’s mission statement:

SELF is the magazine that makes living healthy easy and fun. SELF’s motto: Being fit, strong and active means feeling great, being happy and looking your most beautiful.

Well what’s so happy or fun about being the quintessential high school mean girl? Listen here, Self, putting down women who wear tutus while running is just plain rude! I take this tutu bashing personally, not because I am particularly passionate about layers of brightly colored organza, but because to include what women choose to wear while they are running in any type of public ridicule is… well it’s damaging.

So many women, definitely including myself, have lived in fear of running. I could never run a (insert any distance), or I’m too fat to run have been said, heard, and thought repeatedly by women, maybe even women who read Self. Running, and participating in races can be intimidating for us ladies who jiggle a little more than desired. We run with our hearts. We plan, we prepare, we train. We race. We run hard, it may be fast or slow, pace doesn’t matter because we give it our all. We run, and the bravery, strength, and determination it takes to run distances like 13.1 miles is nothing to be mocked or even taken lightly, regardless of what we are wearing.

Bottom line, anyone can run, you just have to try. Get out there and commit to doing a mile, a few miles, or a whole marathon. Commit with your mind and your heart, and with training your body will follow. Anyone can do it, and if you choose to rock a tutu when running, then take pride in knowing that this Fat-Free Mommy may just be rocking one too.

XOXO,
Fat-Free Mommy

Two Generations of Running Royalty

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Week: #15
Pounds Lost: 52.2
Pounds To Go: 93.2

*Weeks until Princess Half Marathon Weekend: 3

Walt Disney World, the happiest place on earth, home to endless joyous memories which span my entire life. Now, I know what you’re thinking, yes Disney and happiness go hand in hand, but what does that have to do with being a Fat-Free Mommy? Well you see, there is this dream come true of an entity called runDisney, which takes the magic of Disney, integrates a healthy love of running, and creates race weekends which are exciting, empowering, and well magical. The race course weaves through the Disney parks, and beyond some of nicest race volunteers who have ever handed out water and gu, are the actual Disney characters ready and waiting to take pictures with runners. In addition to the official characters, there are also all of the running characters. Oh yes, half the fun of running through Disney is wearing some type of costume or at least character inspired ensemble.

As a mommy runner, theses events give our family an excuse to take weekend Disney vacations, full of fun and celebration, and of course exercise! But it doesn’t stop there, oh no, there’s more! In addition to the big races there are also kid’s races during each race weekend, and what kind of Fat-Free Mommy would I be if I didn’t enter my precious princess into running events of her own?

My favorite race weekend to share with my little princess is none other than the Princess Half Marathon weekend! Tiaras, tutus, and sparkle are everywhere, and that’s just on the adult runners. I haven’t yet finalized my running ensembles, yes that’s a plural, I am running a 5k, a 10k, and a Half Marathon on consecutive days. I am waiting to see what princess inspired running shirts are revealed by my favorite company Raw Threads, and then I will coordinate with my sparkly tiara visor and sparkle skirt. My favorite day will be Friday, the day of the 5k, because once I cross my finish line with the familiar cheers of go mommy go , the real magical race will almost be ready to begin. Our family will regroup and head over to the kid’s races, where I will park myself at the finish line to cheer for my absolute favorite princess, my daughter. She gets so excited at her races. There is always a character at her finish line waiting to give high fives and hugs, and she gets a medal of her very own. By the end we are both beaming with pride and ready to show off our race bling to the world.

Sharing this event with her is beyond special. She is only two, and already she gets it… Exercise is fun! That way of thinking is one of the most valuable life lessons. She won’t have to go through the years of dreading exercise or the gym, because they are already a part of her lifestyle. I don’t have to worry about her being a lazy couch potato because she loves being active, and that is something that I refuse to squash. Princess weekend just reinforces the fact that princesses can and should be active little girls and women. Just because you are a princess doesn’t mean you have to sit and sip tea, and just because you are active doesn’t mean you can’t be a princess. Thanks to runDisney, you can embrace your inner princess while wearing running shoes at any age. Only three more weeks to go until race day, and I can’t wait, because two generations of running royalty is definitely better than one!

XOXO,
Fat-Free Mommy

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