Fat Princess Will NOT Be Fat Fairy!

dreams2Week: #2

Pounds Lost: 0

Pounds To Go: 130

It’s no shocking news that I participated in this past weekend’s runDisney Princess Half Marathon Races. I completed the 5K, the 10K, and the half marathon over my three day weekend adventure. Were my finish times a source of pride? Not really, but that wasn’t really my goal for the weekend either. My goal was to finish injury free. The truth is, I am acutely aware of my size and what it means in relation to my running. For every 1 pound of weight, a total of 4 pounds of pressure is placed on those ever so necessary knees. So currently, having an extra 130 pounds on my body equates to… wait for it… 520 EXTRA POUNDS OF PRESSURE!!! That’s a reality weight-loss show sized person of pressure! For this past weekend, I was definitely a Fat Princess, still a princess for sure, but a fat one! This weekend was the largest I have ever been for a half marathon, so, I took it slow, and completed each race pain free. Am I sore? Um yeah! Of course I am, but I still played in the Disney parks after each race, and taught Baby Boot Camp this morning, so obviously I am injury free.

Beyond the pressure of my knees, I found myself not wanting to take as many pictures and didn’t feel as royal as I maybe could have. I wouldn’t say I was discouraged, ok maybe I would, but I just don’t like having pictures of myself in this state. However, there were some truly amazing characters along the course, so I had to suck it up like a buttercup and take my Fat Princess pictures. I was accepting of the fact that there was no one else to blame for me being a fat princess except for myself. I ate my royal cake and now it was time to pay for it. Even with the disappointment surrounding my stature, I still had an amazing experience, and found myself looking towards the next Glittery Ovary Explosion of a race weekend that is Tinkerbell Race Weekend in May. During that weekend I will also be doing the 5K, 10K, and half marathon, but this time I will not be a Fat Fairy!

I am determined to make Tinkerbell Race Weekend one of celebration. One of being able to take pictures without being so self-conscious. I will wear the race attire I love and not avoid wearing my favorite tanks because I have too much back fat. I will not be the Fat Fairy who finished races despite the limitations of her size. I will be the Fit Fairy who more so looks the part of the runDisney fanatic, who I most certainly am. Am I expecting to be at my goal weight by May? Yeah, NO! I am not a lunatic! I know that losing that much in that little time is not even remotely possible, nor will I be resorting to any unhealthy behaviors in order to reach a weight loss goal in an unreasonable amount of time. What I will be doing is sticking to my plan. Putting my goals ahead of my excuses, and making sure that every choice I make in regards to food is one that will take me one bit closer to the Fat-Free Mommy I am determined to be, and by Princess  weekend next year, I will be a Fat-Free Princess too!

 

XOXO, 

Fat-Free Mommy

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The Biggest Loser’s Forgiveness

Week: #1

Pounds Lost: 0

Pounds To Go: 107

A couple weeks ago, I got to be a running princess once again, and I loved every minute and every mile of Disney’s Princess Half Marathon weekend. 22.4 total miles (5k, 10k, and a half marathon) later and I have to say that my best memory from the weekend wasn’t from any of the races, although they were absolutely wonderful, but my best memory is from a five minute breakdown of a conversation with a weight loss celebrity.   Danni Allen of The Biggest Loser fame was scheduled to be a speaker at the Fit for a Princess Expo, and I was beyond excited to see her. In season 14, she won the Biggest Loser, I watched her lose her weight, I watched her win, and I identified with her all those years ago, because she was inspired to lose weight by a traumatic health experience with her Dad. Us Fatty McDaddy’s Girls need to stick together, right? Well fast forward to a few weeks ago, and I was pumped full of weight loss energy, and ready to totally geek out and get my picture taken with a weight loss idol.

Seeing her talk was amazing, yes she was a celebrity, but she was real,  and she seemed like a friend up on that stage. She spoke of taking weight loss one day at a time, and making small changes in order to make an eventual big change, giving up the scale obsession and focusing on the fit of clothes. She was lovely, and I sat there just soaking in her weight loss positivity. Her speaking time came to end and it was time for what we had all been waiting for, time to actually meet her, ask questions, and of course take a social media postable photo. When it came to my turn, even with a line up of women behind me, I took the opportunity to do the unthinkable. After our photo, I said I had a question for her and then it happend… I completely broke down.  Even as it was happening, I was telling myself not to cry, don’t let it all out, but I was powerless. I told her how she inspired me because I too was a Daddy’s girl. I told her how after having my daughter I lost 220 pounds, felt amazing, and then put 120 of it back on to have my son. I told her through embarrassing tears how my Dad passed in November and how a since then my weight loss has stalled and gone in the way wrong direction, and how I just can’t seem to get a grip on it and turn the weight loss train around.  At that point I was ugly crying, apologizing for crying, and she did just what a friend would do… She gave me the biggest, most sincere hug. Then she gave me the advice that only she could give. You need to forgive yourself, she said, and she was absolutely right. 

I am sad, I miss my Dad, and for the most part, I can be strong, I can put on a brave face and go on with life’s progress. But then, there are other times, ironically today is very much one of those other  times, when the tears flow, the flashes of his death take over my vision, and I feel lost and alone. Typically, that will result in a binge,  and it doesn’t really matter what food I turn to, my ability to have self control is completely gone. At some point I will snap out of it, gain control, but by that point, I will have also gained a pound or five, or ten depending, which leaves me as a shell of strength, hating myself for not having it all together. It’s a cycle that I need to break, and that every week I work on breaking, but what I really need to do first is eactly what Danni said, I need to forgive myself. I need to take it one day at time, and realize that this time around, weight loss may not be as easy, but I can’t and I won’t give up.

I am so thankful for my embarrassing moment with Danni. It was a small piece of an exciting weekend that truly meant the world to me. I may not ever see her again, but I am a forever fan, and she has helped me more than she may ever know. I am still very much a work in weight loss progress, but I can do this. I will reach my goals. It will take a while, but I will be the Fat-Free Mommy who I know I can be!

XOXO,

Fat-Free Mommy



Sharing the Love… A Runcation Story

Well it’s been a few months, so it’s safe to say my weight-loss success story has been at a bit of a standstill. My training on the other hand has been consistent and I have not missed a workout. However, the saying you can’t out-run a bad diet or bodies are shaped in the kitchen, couldn’t ring more true. Let’s just say, I’ve been doing my research just to be sure. So, now that the research has yielded a conformation of such sayings, it’s definitely time to get back on track! Needless to say, I am not currently a resident of Onerderland, but I am in a subdivision near by with a very short term lease! Am I disappoint in myself, of course! I am acutely aware of how close I could be to my goal weight if I could only get my eating under control. However, even with that disappointment, I am excited about my physical training and dedication to that training. So, for now, let’s focus on the positive.

Three years ago when I started this little journaling adventure, or even for my entire Fatty McFatGirl life prior, I never would have thought that I would be the person who used a race as a purpose for a vacation! Well, the Fat-Free Mommy family just got back from our first official Runcation! We traveled all the way to that other sunny state so that I could run in the Dumbo Double Dare at Disneyland (10k Saturday + 1/2 Marathon Sunday). I wasn’t nervous about the races, I had done the distances back to back many times before, what made me the most nervous was that cross country flight. Armed with goodies from Ellimoon, I was ready, or rather my little royals were ready with beautiful distractions. Overall, flights went quite well, my prince was awake and excited, which didn’t seem to amuse the row ahead of us, but if you are going from one Disney vacation spot to another, you should probably expect to have tiny humans aboard.

Now, most would expect that I would be excited for the races, or even playing in the Disneyland parks, which of course I was, but the one event that I was most excited for was the two hours I was going to work the Raw Threads booth at the fitness expo! It is no secret that I am mildly obsessed with the beautiful creations of running fashion designs from Raw Threads! They are beyond soft, the colors are amazing, and the designs that give subtle nods to my favorite disney characters are the BEST! Clearly, I am a superfan, so when I was offered the opportunity to work their expo booth, by a very dear friend, I was sure to make it happen! It was only two hours, but sharing the love of Raw Threads with complete strangers was amazing! It really wasn’t selling workout gear, it was creating bonds with new friends over running fabulousness. Hands down, the best fitness expo experience of my life!

Now that we are home, I feel the need to refresh my focus. Hence the break from my apparent blogging silence. Over the course of the next 5 months I have a few 5ks, a couple 10ks, a 10 mile race, at least 5 half marathons, and 2 marathons ! All of the miles and Baby Boot Camp workouts that I will log are only a small piece of this training puzzle… The rest comes from the kitchen. So, here we go! Running season has started, and there is no such thing as giving up!

XOXO,
Fat-Free Mommy

Tutu Pride

Week: #24
Pounds Lost: 58.4
Pounds to Go: 87.0

What a week! Ok, what a month? Couple of months? It’s clearly been far too long since my last post. Life in the Fat-Free Mommy house has been full of half marathons, 5ks, 10ks, tutus, and of course sparkle. Yes, for my races I more often than not will wear a tutu or something that sparkles, or even both, and not because I somehow think I look like a graceful prima ballerina while I run, because let’s face it, that would be impossible, but because it’s fun! Do I think dressing like a princess/ballerina makes me run faster? Um, no! But it definitely doesn’t slow me down, and if anything, having fun with my race outfit of choice keeps me going strong, because it keeps it fun! I eagerly await the new shirt designs from Raw Threads, my all-time favorite activewear company, so that I can plan my next race outfit. Planning the outfit is part of the fun! Racing is fun! Running is fun! Without the fun, it wouldn’t be worth repeating.

Well this past week it seems as though a certain women’s fitness and beauty magazine tried to bash having fun with your run. If you have not heard or read about the recently published tutu bashing by Self magazine, then stop right now and read this article featured in the
Huffington Post.

According to the media kit by Condenast Self has the following as a part of it’s mission statement:

SELF is the magazine that makes living healthy easy and fun. SELF’s motto: Being fit, strong and active means feeling great, being happy and looking your most beautiful.

Well what’s so happy or fun about being the quintessential high school mean girl? Listen here, Self, putting down women who wear tutus while running is just plain rude! I take this tutu bashing personally, not because I am particularly passionate about layers of brightly colored organza, but because to include what women choose to wear while they are running in any type of public ridicule is… well it’s damaging.

So many women, definitely including myself, have lived in fear of running. I could never run a (insert any distance), or I’m too fat to run have been said, heard, and thought repeatedly by women, maybe even women who read Self. Running, and participating in races can be intimidating for us ladies who jiggle a little more than desired. We run with our hearts. We plan, we prepare, we train. We race. We run hard, it may be fast or slow, pace doesn’t matter because we give it our all. We run, and the bravery, strength, and determination it takes to run distances like 13.1 miles is nothing to be mocked or even taken lightly, regardless of what we are wearing.

Bottom line, anyone can run, you just have to try. Get out there and commit to doing a mile, a few miles, or a whole marathon. Commit with your mind and your heart, and with training your body will follow. Anyone can do it, and if you choose to rock a tutu when running, then take pride in knowing that this Fat-Free Mommy may just be rocking one too.

XOXO,
Fat-Free Mommy

Two Generations of Running Royalty

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Week: #15
Pounds Lost: 52.2
Pounds To Go: 93.2

*Weeks until Princess Half Marathon Weekend: 3

Walt Disney World, the happiest place on earth, home to endless joyous memories which span my entire life. Now, I know what you’re thinking, yes Disney and happiness go hand in hand, but what does that have to do with being a Fat-Free Mommy? Well you see, there is this dream come true of an entity called runDisney, which takes the magic of Disney, integrates a healthy love of running, and creates race weekends which are exciting, empowering, and well magical. The race course weaves through the Disney parks, and beyond some of nicest race volunteers who have ever handed out water and gu, are the actual Disney characters ready and waiting to take pictures with runners. In addition to the official characters, there are also all of the running characters. Oh yes, half the fun of running through Disney is wearing some type of costume or at least character inspired ensemble.

As a mommy runner, theses events give our family an excuse to take weekend Disney vacations, full of fun and celebration, and of course exercise! But it doesn’t stop there, oh no, there’s more! In addition to the big races there are also kid’s races during each race weekend, and what kind of Fat-Free Mommy would I be if I didn’t enter my precious princess into running events of her own?

My favorite race weekend to share with my little princess is none other than the Princess Half Marathon weekend! Tiaras, tutus, and sparkle are everywhere, and that’s just on the adult runners. I haven’t yet finalized my running ensembles, yes that’s a plural, I am running a 5k, a 10k, and a Half Marathon on consecutive days. I am waiting to see what princess inspired running shirts are revealed by my favorite company Raw Threads, and then I will coordinate with my sparkly tiara visor and sparkle skirt. My favorite day will be Friday, the day of the 5k, because once I cross my finish line with the familiar cheers of go mommy go , the real magical race will almost be ready to begin. Our family will regroup and head over to the kid’s races, where I will park myself at the finish line to cheer for my absolute favorite princess, my daughter. She gets so excited at her races. There is always a character at her finish line waiting to give high fives and hugs, and she gets a medal of her very own. By the end we are both beaming with pride and ready to show off our race bling to the world.

Sharing this event with her is beyond special. She is only two, and already she gets it… Exercise is fun! That way of thinking is one of the most valuable life lessons. She won’t have to go through the years of dreading exercise or the gym, because they are already a part of her lifestyle. I don’t have to worry about her being a lazy couch potato because she loves being active, and that is something that I refuse to squash. Princess weekend just reinforces the fact that princesses can and should be active little girls and women. Just because you are a princess doesn’t mean you have to sit and sip tea, and just because you are active doesn’t mean you can’t be a princess. Thanks to runDisney, you can embrace your inner princess while wearing running shoes at any age. Only three more weeks to go until race day, and I can’t wait, because two generations of running royalty is definitely better than one!

XOXO,
Fat-Free Mommy

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